how do working mom's do it???

seriously? how do they do it? i sat at the train station and watched 2 trains head towards work while i sat there crying... i eventually got on one - but jeebus it was hard. (and thank heavens for giant sunglasses!!)

i get it - lou staying with a sitter helps her not be so dependent on me and she'll (hopefully) get socialized - but it sucks. i want to be the one to soothe her and feed her and play with her - i want to be the one she goes to b/c she knows me better than anybody else.

i do admit that there are days i like going to work and getting a "break" - that it's nice to not have to figure out what's wrong when she's crying... but 5 days of 9-5 is just too much for me...

i have to do it though - to pay off debt and save for a house - b/c we want our daughter to live in a house - have a backyard to play with her animals in - have a doorway where we mark her height - have a home to come HOME to when she's on break from college... have a home that we can truly have as ours and hers.

I'm doing it to better myself, our marriage, and especially my daughter - she is worth everything and more - but as i said before THIS SUCKS!